and I wear it on my skin.
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Guys. This picture is for you. All of you. And for me. I drew it a few months ago because I wasn't happy. I'm uploading it now, for you. With this message for you.

We've all been through a lot. That's why we're artists. So many of us do it for healing, as a way to cope, as a way to put our feelings into visuals. That's what I did here. I was terribly sad and had a headache, so I worked with both of those things. I look at it now and recognize how I felt. I don't remember why, but I remember how.

But I've been kept back from happiness for a long time now. Even if I hadn't been realizing it, my past had such a thick hold on me and left me little room to move. And then I began to regress and not in a good way. I like who I used to be - fun, bubbly, happy. And then I "grew up" so to speak. We all do. And in that, we start to see things for what they are. We look at the world and we're like, well damn, nothing here works too well and there's no escape. It gets pretty depressing sometimes. And on top of that we have a lot of personal things that really weigh us down. It gets stressful and stops us from being just who we're supposed to be. We've got these big hearts, but we hurt too much sometimes and it stops us from giving all the love that we can.

And guys, you're all really beautiful people for that heart of yours. Hurting or not, it's there, and you hurt because you have it. It makes you somebody. You ARE a somebody and don't you ever feel otherwise. There's no one else who is just like you. Not your family and not your best friends. Something in you sets you apart. That's why you are you and why you are not someone else.

So I want you to do something. I want you to free yourself of everything that's holding you back. Your past and destructive people. People from your past. Just let go. Let you live for you. Because then, it gets better; so, so much better. You have a chance at happiness. Happiness because of YOU. Live for you now. It's your time and your chance at a real life. It's all yours; make it your own. Surround yourself with the right people and love them as they love you.

You're all so great and it's time for you to not be held down anymore. It's time to not let the "you" be taken away from you now. Be you 100% because you is what's beautiful. It's worth it to let yourself shine that way.

Smile, guys. Each of you is special to me. If you watch me, I've been to your page and visited because it means a lot to me. I know you're all great people because of that. I'd give all of you a hug if I could. I hate to see any of you be sad. No matter what, you all deserve to be able to smile. You've made me who I am and you've made me happy, now I feel like I should do what I can for you, too. You're all WONDERFUL. Anyone who EVER tells you otherwise is wrong. As long as you mean something to one person at least, you can't say you're worthless. And you know what? You mean something to me.

That being said, if any of you ever want to talk and vent, I'm here. Drop me a comment or a note. I'm more than happy to talk to you and offer the best advice I can. I am here for each and every one of you beautiful beings. I'll never be too busy to care about you, remember that.

So, come on. Let's be happy.

- nil